我的願望

其實我的願望並不難達成

但, 對我來說. 有點遙遠

我總以為安分守己, 他就能回到我身邊

我總以為痴痴地等, 就會有奇蹟出現

我總以為我還愛著他

但.

一切卻是相反

沒奇蹟, 沒可能, 我.....放棄了

自從他說

“我再也不可能會和李凱玲在一起了”

我就狠下心, 放棄了我愛的他

這樣也好

我再也不必為了他而感到不愉快

現在我最希望的是

-獲得好成績, 當一位出色的飛機師

-別再犯錯, 做個安分守己的人

-找回失去的勇氣, 來接受很喜歡我的他, 來接受我喜歡的他

-我愛的所有人, 包括我家人, 親朋好友. 大家都平平安安的

就這樣. =[

對於你♥

對於你的想念

應該除了我自己 再也沒人能體會

現在的他 過著一般開心的生活 只是他的生活 自從那一天起 就少了我

但對他來說 什麼也沒缺少

對我而言 生命中缺少了一些

我沒誇張

其實在愛情小說 偶像劇等 都會出現一些類似的情節

現實的世界裡 應該很少有這樣的畫面

以前的我 過了一段戀情 難免會很悲傷 但過了不久我會重新開始我的新戀情

現在的我 不能說改變了 因為我不能自己來判斷

需要讓我身邊的人來斷定我的改變

我能確定的是

我終於體會到真正愛一個人到底什怎樣的感覺

說真的

一直以來說氣話 說一些我已忘了他的話

但事實是我還沒放棄

但我知道一切都不能勉強

我現在只能慢慢地忘記 

我曾選擇忘記 但我其實是做不到

我也選擇堅持

但我害怕到頭來我什麼都會失去

傷的卻是我自己

一開始的我就覺得我和他是沒理由會分開的

但卻沒想到問題就出在我們自己身上

我們的感情真的好不牢固

這幾天 讓我回想起過去 我一直在想

你曾經在某一個海邊刻上我和你的名字

我真的很希望我能到那裡去

讓我親眼看見曾經屬於我們的東西

我好想知道那一刻你是用什麼心情來刻上我們的名字

一直以來我都不想讓我身邊的人擔心

我也不想再失去他們

我真的好想對你們說：

謝謝你們

在我最需要你們的時候 聽我訴說我的心情

帶我嘗試新的事情

讓我知道我不是時候停下我的腳步

再給我時間

因為他曾經對我來說太重要

給他的話：

現在的我對你來說應該什麼都不是了吧

你心裡一定在想 為什麼我還是一樣的傻

或者是你連看我一眼都不要了吧

一開始你對我說粗口 罵我 閒我煩 還曾經說我是**

當下你的心情一定很恨我吧

以前的我在你眼裡我是女友

現在呢？

我真的不敢想像

我以為你能和我一起完成夢想

我以為你是我的最後

但始終都不是

當你過著開心的日子時

我就要去試著很努力的開心

你給我的一切 在一瞬間就得拿回去

過了怎麼久 我還是不能忘掉

你對我來說真的那麼重要嗎？

我自己都不知道

其實...我從來都沒放棄

從來沒有.

Am I fee happy without you?

Guys, thanks for caring ya. I'll be fine. Today i felt like unhappy. First i saw you at Uk. And I can't believe that actually I still remember you. Why i can't forget about everything and being happy? Just now I go played basketball , my heart was like can't control and my tears felt down slowly. What happen to me?! What I'm suppose to do.. I'm suffering right now. I still missing you. I'm super duper silly.. =[.. Thanks for you all who an wei me just now. =]..

I ♥ Today

Nothing was bothering me today. Feel so relax with Rahmen ( Herman ), Anmy, Chicky (Chucky ).. =].. Thanks to all of you. By the way, Had a great and awesome BBQ at seasport with Nichole, thats my papa. Even her birthday already passed, but i still wish her Happy Birthday to you, my papa  ♥. Suddenly I feel moody . Maybe i knew that he is happy without me.Its nevermine. Just let it go.Today i walked around labuan with them. wow! amazing. so 

happy and feel tired. had a great time to release my stress-ness and bother-ness. =DAfter that i saw my sweetheart Hoho with her mom at Zipangu. =]Miss all of my sweethearts , but tomorrow we can meet le! oh yeah! ♥♥

Nothing else i can said.

I still .......

Just sometimes when i alone. I so miss the memories thats ever belong to us.

=D ♥

Still left 4 days then I can fly like my papa le! Hahaha~
By the way, my Geography get A , wooohoo! my teacher marked the paper !
But not for sure, haha! Today feel nervous badly during science paper 2 and sejarah! oh gosh~ I brabis panic during sejarah time. Hope that i can get A too.. Today i saw someone, just .........

After Pmr what should I do with my sweethearts them? Clubbing? impossible not! =] wakaka!
Everyday being happy , thats the one of my rules! Erm, I still-ing love pilot at all.. =D NO MATTER WHAT, I also wanna be a pilot...

Nothing else i can said, Jia you Lykai! =']

Pmr - The 1st days

T.T
Feel nervous at all!
But I think I did well in paper 2 , paper 1 so difficult for me.
Tomorrow is English paper and geography . Good luck for me again.
By the way, I thought someone will wish me good luck, but it not happen since yesterday until now. Maybe I think much. Impossible la, Lykai. Silly u. The one who hate you will not wish u anything. Nevermine, I will forget about it.

Nothing else I can write, just hope that I can be happy everyday and all the best in my Pmr.

My feeling

My feeling = stress + a little bit nervous + a little bit happy + sad

I can't describe my real feeling.
Am I feel panic?
Don't know. Haha
Since this morning, I just know the truth. T.T
By the way, suddenly I ter-think something "special" for me in this morning.
Today all the student have to wish good luck and shake hand to form 3 students, of course included me! I keep saying thank you, thank you, and thank you. So tired!
After that, Adrian's turn, Ken's turn , Ah Liang and bla bla bla etc. The point is I thought he will not wish me or shake hand with me. I feel nervous when he suddenly appear in front of me. My feeling was like "oh my sky" and T.T. After shaked hand with him, my tears almost wanna fall down already. I straight away turns my head to paula there. Don't know why will like that.
Stupid me!
Haha..

But it pass ady.. So, pmr, here I come! Haha=]
I'm just finish studying and prepare my weapon.
Feel sleepy.. Gonna sleep soon. Tomorrow good luck to myself!